as we usher in a new year, previous chapters from 2009 are carefully sealed away in memories. be it good memories or bad ones, 2009 proved to be a challenging and eventful year for me. 2009 marks the end of my SP journey and I really missed it alot.... even till now.
yes, when one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us. Sure i'm an undergrad now at SIM. I'm supposed to enjoy varsity life right? wrong.. i hate it. somehow, it just does not feel like a school without my friends. and the curriculum really is terribad. I mean come on! 3 hours lecture per module a week? Students rush to attend lectures, after that, rushed to go home. somehow, it does not seem like a school to me. at least back in SP, I can still see students flooding the library, foodcourt, and benches outside LTs just to rush their projects or having small discussions. and the SP lecturers are actually tangible after lessons. here in SIM, lecturers become intangible after their 3 hour lectures are done.
Maybe it is because UOL programmes are 100% exams based so there are not many chances for students to interact. Bah! whatever! i know ranting isn't gonna help me enjoy varsity life. only i can help myself by thinking positive. oh please! spare me! that phrase is too damn cliche. if everybody can think positive so easily, there wont be people jumping off buildings and gassing themselves. and who will be out of job? psychiatrists probably. maybe the undertakers will see a drop in their business but Singapore is an aging population, i'm sure they will survive. i just want to get my cert and earn money asap as being a poor student really SUCKS ASS! being the ever disgruntled me, i'm 100% sure i will bitch about work on this blog next year!
my darling recently complained i've no aims in life. in my mind i was like.. no aims? seriously? i have got aims alright. having aims and actually achieving them are on a totally different scale. i can aim for the stars but what good is it when all i got are.. pollutants? even worst.. i may tear my arm muscle in the process of reaching for the stars. so is it better to aim for the stars and achieving crap or aim for crap and achieving stars? both seems bad to me, probably the latter will yield better results. the only tradeoff is you will have to think crap everyday and actually seeing results at the END. i think by that time, i will most probably get condemned by the whole world.
this will in turn lead to the next argument: why not aim for the stars and actually achieving them? now tell me, how many of your friends are actually high achievers? 1 out of 20million? nah im exaggerating. my aim now is as simple as getting a degree cert by 2011. It does not matter to me how i do it or what is my attitude towards achieving my aims. perhaps it matters alot to my darling. since i loved my darling so much, i am going to change my attitude towards this aim of mine. perhaps a little more drive in the process of achieving this goal. i will do it for myself and my own future and not solely for you only, i swear.
there baby! i said it and published it in black and white on the internet for the whole world to see. with the world as my witness, can you please stop ignoring me already? bad way to start a new year you know. not to mention the love deprivation and my withdrawal symptoms of not getting close to you. by the time you read this... hopefully you will feel cheerier. just wanna let you know, behind my nonchalant attitude towards studies, my feelings for you are always true!
Ever mine, ever thine, ever ours,
Sammy
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